I am a terrible blogger

Really, I am, but my promise to my handful of followers is that I will update no later than next week... Lots of things to come!

For this post however, I will say Happy Easter and enjoy your day! I will be spending it with my gorgeous husband and gorgeous and fabulous kiddos!

XOXO J

Chelsea said so :)

Chelsea's fantastic blog has a contest going right now for a tutu! I have been hunting for the perfect tutu for a couple weeks now for Olivia. I will either use it for her Halloween costume, or for her 1st birthday. Not sure- heck, maybe both! So, anyway, anyone who reads my blog, go check out Chelsea's blog. Its all things Mom!

XO Jamie
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The babes <3

My daughter has learned some new things as of late. She can now clap :) it is ridiculously adorable when she realizes that her hands are actually meeting and making the clapping sound.

Liv is also taking steps. Actual steps. She is going to be walking any minute.

She follows me all over the house and plays on the kitchen floor while I am cooking. (note to self: mop kitchen floor again)I actually don't really like that because my fear is that I will spill something on her. Not good. She is taking really well - finally- to her playpen so that's good. I can pop her in there when I use the oven.

My girl is eating finger foods! woo hoo! She still gets her oatmeal and puree until my stock is gone) for breakfast, but lunch is finger foods, dinner is finger and bedtime she gets more oatmeal.

She is learning words which is way fun :) She crawls over to me and says mama! She also says "what's that". Of course it is not clear as day, but when you match it with her motions and actions- we know what she is saying :)

She loves music! Whenever we put music on the TV she takes off to get to the tv as fast as she can. Jammin is a huge black eyed peas fan and we often play "gotta feeling", or "boom boom pow" for him and Olivia is just mezmerized.

This leads me to my son, Ben. He is obsessed with Fergie. Absolutely loves her. Told me she was pretty- how does a 3 year old know what pretty is?- and the other day, get ready for this, he says, "mommy, I like Fergie's butt!" WHAT?? Well, no more music videos for you buddy! The video for "gotta feeling" starts off with her getting ready to go out and you get a booty shot (with undies) but apparantly that caught my son's eye. Now he is all about butt's. Let's hope it a phase :)
Ben is learning all kinds of new songs at preschool. He walks around all day singing and talking to himself :P He is obsessed with Geo Trax- thank you fisher price for putting me in the red- (not really, but close) :P My house looks like a department store with train displays all over the place. His train sets are now bigger than his train table which takes up half a wall...seriously.

I will update later on the older babes. They are 13 and 11. Not as cute. :( Especially when they *THINK* they are grown! Grrr....

Jon Gesselin- OOPS. Gosselin

About to watch his interview. Right now, I think he is a tool. We shall see if I still feel that way in an hour. However, let me just say for the record- I think the way he looks in the media is like a total IDIOT.

K, off to watch my guilty pleasure!


ETA: Yes, I still think he is a tool. However, I am also going to award him with another yummy title. Douche.

Wah wah wah, I was abused and beat down and bla bla. I firmly believe that people can only do what you allow them to do, and clearly in a household with 8 children- SOMEONE needed to take charge and set a routine. Kate may be high strung, but hell, I am high strung and I only have 4 kids. I think what I found the most offensive was when he starts gushing about his new girlfriend. How can you go on national television and say something as cruel as you love this 23 year old little twit more than you ever did of your wife of 10 years, and the mother of your children? It is one thing to feel that or think you feel it, but really? to go and say it and completely nullify the most signifigant relationship of both their lives. Asshole.

Ok, I'm done.

Love...marriage...babies

It's amazing to me how a baby can completely alter a relationship between his or her parents. When you find out your pregnant, it's all about excitement and love and making plans for your family to expand. Then you plan and shop and enjoy all the wonder of pregnancy. Some of the sweetest moments in my marriage occurred when Jeremy would rub my belly or talk to his baby while I slept. Then the baby comes and you are both overjoyed and instantly in love all over again. I felt so close to my husband in those first moments that we spent crying and getting to know our new baby (x2). It seems like you are going to be that happy and blissful forever. Fast forward 3 months down the road when you are both sleep deprived, swimming in baby gear, smelling like spit up and getting pooped and peed on daily. Now reality has set in and you start to stress even more about finances, and planning for the future- you think about will's and college educations and new expenses on the grocery bill. It can really put a strain on things. Your sex life seems non existent for a while and sleep sounds like a gift from the Gods! Its so crazy to me, that one event that you look so forward to can be so life altering. My husband and I adore our babies, and would not rethink the decision to expand our family even for a moment, but we would both be lying if we said that our little bundles and our older kids as well, did not change us. I guess when you are a pair, you are the most important thing to one another, and then when this little person is added to the mix, you are not the most important thing anymore. Their needs come first. I have neglected to cook a meal or two for the hubs, but you can bet my babies are always fed. I guess its just what happens. And, I really think men have the biggest issue with the change. Not to take away from my husband at all, because I think he is a fabulous father, but I really think they can find themselves somewhat displaced when they are not the one and only focus anymore. This leads me to my theory that its the first baby in a relationship that executes the biggest change. I think once you get through that and learn to adjust and live as 3 or 4 or whatever, that the next babies are not such a dramatic addition.

I am not entirely sure where all my babbles come from today, but I guess I am sitting back and looking at how much Jeremy and I have changed and evolved over the years. We are taking the time now, to get back to us, and make our marriage the best that it can be. At the root of it all is love, and that's me and him. Jeremy is my match, for better or worse, we vowed our lives to one another and if there is one thing I have learned in the years we have been together-particularly since the babies- we are committed to one another and will fight to the death for each other. I have never felt as loved as I do since I met J, and I could not imagine my life without him.
TTFN :)

Ch ch ch changes...

What a week or two it has been! I had to catch my breath to make sure it was real. Ok, a little background... I was born in Toledo, Ohio. Not the most glamourous place on earth, more like an industrious city with the blue collar working class making up most of the population. Lots of train tracks, factories, and commuters to Detroit. Jeep is/was there, Ford, Chevy. Most people know someone who knows someone who knows you. That type of place. Small town feel in a pretty decent sized city. Freezing ass cold winters, hot humid summers, and not much in between. Anyway, my dad and his side of the family still live there, and I moved with my mom at the age of 8. ALL of my family with whom I have the closest relationship and really grew up with is here, in California. My grandparents, who I am very close with, my uncles- most of them, are here and of course my mom who I have lived more with than without. I lived with her until she moved back to Ohio for a bit, then again until after Jeremy and I got married. We lived with her for the first year while we waited for the school year to let out and get a house on base. Anyway, my point is, I was very lucky to meet my husband who PCS'd to Travis. Travis is only about 40 minutes West of Sacramento/Elk Grove area, which I call home. I still see my mom at least every week, talk daily and visit the folks a couple times a month. Last week I was waiting for J to bring the truck home so I could head to Sac to visit mom for lunch. He calls me outside to "talk privately"...not a good start to ANY conversation in my opinion. We don't talk at all. He hands me a piece of paper he printed off of MPF. MPF? I don't know what it stands for either. I just know it is the place you go for everything in the military. It houses all the member's info. They can reacg it via secured internet connection and check it "virtually". So, vitural MPF has ORDERS waiting for my husband as he logs in to cancel a request for orders he put in a while back. OMG. We have been reassigned. We are moving. Where you ask? Hill AFB, UTAH. Talk about cold winters! Yikes. So after 5 years of being a military girlfriend, then wife, I am finally going to find out what it's like. My husband has never been deployed anywhere scary, he did a small stint at Edwards AFB, which if anyone has ever been there knows it is pretty much one step from HELL. Its ugly, dry, hot and has scary wild animals running all over base. They tell you not to leave the house after dark cause the animals come out to play. Serious. Its just past the Mojave Desert. Back to my point. Jeremy kind of has it made here at Travis. He has made some great 'contacts' within the Force, he has a prime position right now which is VERY family friendly, and he never goes anywhere. He doesn't TDY or Deploy.... I am really afraid for him to be the new fish at a base where people are already established like he is here. I know I married into this, and I knew what I was signing up for, but I am really nervous. Especially since I won't have my support system right there if he does have to go somewhere. I will be in a new place, surrounded by people I don't know. Poor me, I know, but this is my version of a nightmare. I am not the most ourgoing girl you have ever met. I am pretty quiet, and rather shy IRL. I don't- rather can't, walk into a room and just put myself out there. Needless to say, this move is both exciting and terrifying for me. I am glad however that we got Hill. Jeremy was going to get orders handed down to him anyway. He has been here for 5 years. His time is up so to speak. His position ends in December, and then he would be going back to working engines. While he has been on this assignment, his shop has been undergoing MAJOR changes. Command has turned over, his shop has moved and his squadron is going from 39 troops to 11. The new kids are the ones who get to stay. The more seasoned guys are all being relocated. Either to new squadrons here or getting orders. Jeremy filled out something called a BOP which is a base of preference. Its basically a form that says if orders come down for me, this is the place I want to go. SO when the Chief heard that all these guys were going, he pulled in a favor so that Jeremy could get the best set of orders from the bunch. for that, I am grateful. It was going to happen anyway. It could have been Clovis NM, Phoenix or Withita Falls, TX. Those are the ugliest, in all meanings of the word ugly, bases in the US. So, that's that. I am moving. Either in Feb or June, if we can extend so the kids can finish this year out. ugh. 12 hours away from my family, and 12 hours closer to his. haha. We are going to be halfway between the two places which is good for him. My whole life is here though. Its going to be really hard for me. All of my friends have been my friends for decades. Seriously, I have been with the same people for YEARS. I don't know how I am going to do this. ahhh.... I just hope God can still hear me when I am in Utah.

Thank goodness for the internet. :)

Oh, and the kids went back to school today. I started yesterday, and my baby girl was in daycare for the first time ever. Talk about a tough pill for mommy to swallow. Deep breathes.

Off to clean my house. Ta Ta.

well, um...

the previous two posts were by my little guy while I was making dinner. ha ha.. I am not deleting them. They are totally cute :D And someday when I have my blog printed, I will put those pages in his book.

I wish my camera was closer. He (Jammin) is sitting on the stairs right now in his Thomas the train undies, playing with his geo trax and talking to himself. Where is my video camera when I need it? :D He is awesome.